A Message of Love

My name is Matthew. For five and a half years I struggled with a unidentifiable, supposedly "chronic" illness before I finally made peace with it and began to heal. I am now well on my way to great health. Where once I had no energy for anything, now I work out several times a week. Where before I had horrible anxiety and panic attacks, I'm now centered and happy more often than not. With this blog I share my experiences from this journey, all of which should help you on your own healing path. I provide information about spiritual/emotional aspects of healing as well as physical ones, sometimes even posting inspiring poetry, essays, or links to helpful sites.

If you have experiences of your own that you would like to share, I welcome you to send them to me so that I can possibly post them if I feel they can be of use to other people.

Feel free to share these posts anywhere you feel like doing so. Post them on Facebook, email them, print them out, or whatever. It is my hope that together we can build a site that not only helps people, but also enriches and brings joy to our lives.

If you would like to support this effort, please consider making a donation through PayPal to: artful_dodger_47 (an official PayPal account is in the works). Don't forget to add yourself in the "Follow by Email" space!

One final note: feel free to contact me, if you would like, at beautytheory@gmail.com. I am available to do individual healing and coaching work. Hablo español, también.

2/10/12

Do I Deserve Love?

Today is an amazing day. We're here, we're live, and most importantly, we're conscious. Let's celebrate that!

Today I've been reflecting on people's ideas about love. Specifically, about how many of us don't feel, on some level, like we don't even deserve it.

It's fascinating when you start to see it in other people -- that beneath the face they put on every morning, their job, their anger triggers is a person who just didn't feel enough love as a child, and who probably still doesn't feel enough love now.

Oh, he tries to overcome it in order to reach some distant point in time when he will be deserving of it. He "proves" himself according to his experience: by working really hard, by being sick, by fantasizing about killing himself, by trying to accumulate lots and lots of money, by being an asshole, by being so sweet and caring for other people that he doesn't care about himself. . .

It can take many forms, but the root cause is always the same: a feeling that he doesn't deserve love unless he somehow earns it.

Well, I've got news for you: you can't earn love. How the hell could you possibly earn something that is already yours? That is inherently a part of you?

Know that you deserve love, that you are worth more than you could possibly imagine. You are Love itself, more beautiful than any song or poem or worldly sight. Allow yourself to feel that -- that you deserve to love and be loved.

All you have to do is open up your eyes and realize that if you give up the subconscious program of "not good enough" or "not deserving," you'll find that you'll get all the love you could possibly need. Are you willing to do that?


Posted by at
Labels: , , , ,

4 comments:

  1. Rachel MacDonaldFebruary 10, 2012 at 4:02 PM

    (((Matthew))) That is warm and loving!!! thank you! <3

    I just came to this realisation recently, that I was trying to earn love, or make myself good enough, but everyone has different criteria and I could not make them happy all the time. And it was impossible for me to do all the things I thought I ahd to do to make myself worthy of love. However, God showed me that I am worthy of love, because God made me. That's it! For no other reason, except that I am a creation of God - the Loving Source of All that Is and will Ever Be! :) I even wrote a song about it :) You, too, are worthy of love. Thank you for this article! Blessings, Rachel.

    ReplyDelete
  2. MatthewFebruary 10, 2012 at 4:17 PM

    Rachel, I am so glad you've come to this realization, because it is a beautiful realization indeed. : )

    ReplyDelete
  3. estherFebruary 10, 2012 at 4:31 PM

    hmm...

    ReplyDelete
  4. AnonymousFebruary 11, 2012 at 9:02 PM

    Thanks for sharing this, Matt. Words worth hearing.

    ReplyDelete

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)